Its so strange this world of blogging....sometimes the reasons you started a blog in the first place..turn out to be completely different from what you originally intended.
I recently wrote to a blogger friend..sharing my thoughts about how I feel when I post and publish something...on a more personal level..
And this was my analogy -
"As vulnerable as I may feel at the time after I have hit that publish button... somehow it just makes me feel better once I have released my thoughts out there into the world....as if they were tiny delicate feathers floating into the air...not knowing where they are going to land or how they will be handled if caught...but if they happen to land in a hand that sees the beauty in that tiny delicate feather...then you know you have reached someone".
I want you all to know that yesterday...when I shared my news....hundreds of feathers were released in the air...and not a single one...had an unsafe landing.
I am so very thankful that those tiny feathers of thoughts reached you and that there were so many hands of love and compassion ready to catch them. I am grateful that they reached you....as your kind words of love and support reached me.
I want for you all to know that I am doing ok...the blow has softened.
My relationship with my father was not a close one and so there are mixed emotions with his passing.
I think my tears and heartache come more from missing my Mother so much more now than ever.
From the bottom of my heart...Thank you to everyone for your loving comments, emails and posts it has truly been such a comfort.