Mar 1, 2011

AN INDEFINTE BREAK


I contemplated wheither or not to write this post, but a big part of me felt compelled to share and be honest with my readers, especially those dear friendships that I have made since starting this blog.

Last night I lost my father to Cancer.

Having lost my mother to the same illness over 10 years ago..I know that I should be better prepared, equipped, have a better understanding and acceptance of it...but I'm not ..not yet.

Its almost like another chapter to my book of life has been closed.
A part of my life sealed forever. Now...the two people who were responsible for giving me life, the two people who literally have known me all of my life..
are gone...and the pain just sits now like brocken glass in my heart...and I am grieving them both...in different ways and for very different reasons.

I know...I will be ok...and all will be well in my world again.


And so the best tribute I can pay both my parents...is to be thankful to them for bringing me into this world, all my life experiences with them both...helped shape me into the woman I am today...and for that I am truly grateful.


Much Love
Anna x

36 comments:

  1. My sweet Anna this post Has brought me tears for many reasons Im sorry for your loss but I think your parents would be so proud to have created such a beatuful person like yourself hugs to you and hope your break is not to long as I will miss you. That saying is so very true and believe it also very much xxxxx

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  2. Anna I am so so sorry for your loss- no words can possibly be the right ones but know I have you in my thoughts and am sending the warmest of hugs. xoxo

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  3. Darling girl, so sorry. Take your time. Thank you for letting your readers know, you will be in our thoughts and prayers. Sending you love and hugs,

    Lisa xx

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  4. I am so very very sorry for your losses Anna. To have already lost your mother and then to lose your father in the same way, so soon, is truly heartbreaking. Sending love and wishing you whatever is necessary to help repair and lessen the pain in your heart. Much Love. xoxoxo

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  5. Anna, you sound so strong but I am sure this is very hard for you. Take your time to enjoy those special things that make you happy and to grieve.

    I am thinking of you and will keep you and your family in my prayers.

    With sympathy and friendship,
    Natasha.

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  6. So young to be experiencing such loss.They must have been so proud of you.My thoughts are with you during this very painful time. Fiona

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  7. Anna, I am so so sorry to hear about your loss.
    Sending love and prayers an thinking of you.
    X
    V

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  8. Anna, sorry to hear about your Dad. Thinking of you. x

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  9. Oh sweetheart, my heart is breaking for you. No words will ease the pain, but please know I'm sending my thoughts and much love your way. I know your parents would have been so proud to call you their daughter. Thinking of you sweet, K xxx

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  10. I'm so sorry for your loss Anna.
    Thinking of you.
    ~Sam x

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  11. oh Anna I feel so so sad for you. To have this happen twice, you may assume you were protected or 'used to it' but no, it is still such a blow. You poor girl, you must cry and cry and take all the time you need, grieving is a long process. But I can see you are already looking on the silvery lining side, just think you had your dad for as long as you did and that alone is special. I am thinking of you. xoxoxo

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  12. Such sad news. So sorry for your loss. You'll be in my thoughts.

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  13. Oh Anna. I am so terribly sorry to hear your news. I wanted to ask you how he was doing when I emailed you last week but did not want to pry. I know this is such a difficult time for you for many different reasons and I hope that in time you will find the answers you are looking for. But you are right, all will be ok in your world again. Thinking of you, I hope you are ok and sending you much love.. Son x

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  14. Oh Anna, so sorry to hear about the loss of your father. Thinking of you and sending lots of love xx

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  15. I'm so sorry for your loss Anna. I have not lost either parent and dread the day when it will happen. I'm sure they are both very proud of you and all you have accomplished including the beautiful family you have produced. Take care and come back to see us when you are ready.

    Jennifer xx

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  16. I have no words to comfort you but am sending you lots of hugs and hope you find comfort in the arms of your beautiful little family xxx

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  17. Anna I cannot imagine what you are going through right now. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Stay strong Sandy xx My thoughts are with you.

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  18. Anna,
    Such beautiful words of your parents on who you have become. I am saddened for you at your loss. I will be sending you positive strengthening thoughts your direction and wishing you comfort which I know will be difficult when your heart aches as much as it does.
    xx
    callie

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  19. Anna. You are very brave. Thoughtful of everyone, even at this time. You go and grieve however you need to. We'll be here waiting for you when you get back. Those parents of yours knew what they were doing when they created you :)

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  20. Anna, doesn't seem like the right forum to contact you. I'm so very sorry for your loss and am here if you need me (and Lily) to do anything for you. Take all the time you need and I will talk to you soon. Thinking of you, my friend. Love Paula

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  21. Dearest Anna, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I can't begin to understand what you are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Take all the time you need - we will be here waiting for you when you return. Sending you lots of hugs xx

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  22. Dearest Anna, I'm so very sorry...You're such a beautiful person, life is just not fair...I just want to say that if you ever need anything please do not hesitate to ask, I'm not far from you...xo

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  24. Anna -- words can never adequately convey how sorry i am that you have to go through this. i lost my mom about 3 months back, and it was just so sad to lose her. i cannot imagine what you must be feeling now re: your dad. my best to you and your family.

    you are, no doubt, a tribute to both your parents and to their amazing lives and love that they invested into your life (a life already filled with and reflecting a thankful spirit).

    i trust you know that there are many of us who are somewhat familiar with what you are going through. may our words of encouragement ring true, even if such well-wishes sound hollow when grieving.

    i'm glad you felt safe to share your loss with us. look forward to your return when you feel ready. God bless.

    - Jg.

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  25. Lots of love and Prayers coming your way Anna, I'm so sorry to hear about your mother and father. Love you, God bless.

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  26. OMG Anna, I am so so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. Your parents I am sure were so proud of the beautiful, giving, loving person you are. Be kind to yourself sweetheart. Treat that broken heart tenderly. Thinking of you. A-M xx

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  27. Oh, Anna, goosebumps and tears in Hobart, Lovely. I'm so sorry to hear that dreadful news. I can't attempt to comprehend how you must be feeling. Take all the time you need - we'll all be waiting for you in Blogland. I'm not going anywhere. Sending you all my love tonight J x

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  28. Oh Anna, I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for having the strength to share with us, please remember that you will be in my prayers and we'll be patiently waiting for your return. Big hugs to you my dear. xx

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  29. I'm sorry to hear of your loss too. We are never prepared to mourn those we love so do take time to do so and remember them fondly as I'm sure you will. xx

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  30. Oh my god Anna, I am literally crying for you. You have broken my heart... I am praying for you and somehow you will get through this. Because you have a beautiful heart and your heart will be strong again. We all love you and are here for you... Take care. And time. x

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  31. I'm so sorry Anna. Sending you a huge virtual hug. So very sad, and I am hopeless with words in this situation. Thinking of you. xx

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  32. Hi Anna,
    I have only just read this post and I wanted to pass on my condolences. I am so sorry to hear of your loss you must be feeling so very sad. Be kind to yourself.
    Thinking of you.
    Donna xx

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  33. New follower here. Found you through Lisa's Informal Home. I'm sorry you're going through this time and wish you a rested heart soon.
    Leslie
    Tranquil Acres of Alexandria

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  34. Oh Anna, I missed this post last week, I am sorry. My condolences on losing your father. I think your friends visit came at the perfect time....don't feel guilty about laughing and enjoying. Mourning is as individual as the person who died. You have to embrace the happy times and laughter because they are not a given. There will be plenty of time to feel the sadness, and hopefully the peace that will follow. I was not close to my father. When he died, I mourned also for what we never had with him. It's complicated, just let it follow it's own path.

    Hugs to you.

    Chania

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